I started writing on Medium about a month ago. And about a month ago, I also published a really rather stupid video on YouTube. Truth is, this is something that I have always wanted to do since middle school. To create something, share my thoughts out there in the world and have people listen to me and find some entertainment. I watched countless YouTubers and always wanted to be like them. In fact, I used to want to be a YouTuber as my full-time job.
Writing articles, creating music and video, almost any form of creativity that you want to out into the world and share is daunting and most people never end up doing it. We say we will after we have the right tools and gear. I know this because I am a victim of this. When I first got into University, I wanted to start a YouTube channel about University life and how it is. But, I never did it. I told myself that it is because I did not have the right camera and I did not have the time. But, that was bullshit. I spent a lot of time watching Friends on Netflix and two very capable camera’s, one being in my pocket. I still don’t post on YouTube (other than that one video) because the truth is that I do not have the confidence. And that is actually how I started writing on Medium. I wanted to start putting something out there. I have never written anything before, but I had least had to get started. Medium was a way for me to start writing and putting myself out there where I felt safe. I ended up liking writing more than I thought because I want to always continue and practice my writing skills. But Medium is still a site where I am sharing my thoughts. So what gave me the confidence to start?
The realization that no one is waiting for you.
Now, if this somehow by some miracle goes viral and everyone reads this, whoops, but that is the truth. In my head, I always thought that when I start something, it is going to be viewed by hundreds at least and it’ll go big and I will have a lot of people judging me. But that is not the case. Who knows how many people are going to actually end up reading this.
Once I realized that it's not like I have a line of people waiting to see what I will create, starting didn’t seem that scary.
But I love every word that I write. Every article that I publish. Every idea that I have that I am excited to share. I am finally doing something that I have always wanted to do! While this may not be the initial thought that I had, I have finally started. I am creating. Even if no one is reading this, I am doing this for me. I am doing this because I genuinely enjoy this. I am not writing in hopes of this article becoming famous. It’s just fun.